If I have a baby grand piano to move from one room to another, I
would not be able to move it by myself. I would need to call a mover to
help. But I decide that I want to move it and to where.
It
is the same with our heavy emotional content. The first thing that we
all know is that we definitely want to get rid of it. We want to move it
OUT. The part that takes more thinking in order to choose is where do
we want to move it to?
It must be pretty clear by now that
blaming others and dumping on our loved ones, friends, co-workers, or
even more removed people, like politicians, professionals and more is
not exactly bringing us so much happiness. It seems to just go around
and around, doesn’t it?
So we want to move out our negative content AND be happy. That adds information!!
The
beauty of Torah is that happiness is the experience of the soul when
doing mitzvahs, learning, or emulating Hashem’s attributes of mercy. We
may not feel happy doing this service, but it is a spiritual reality.
Starting with a grain of truth helps because we definitely like to feel
happy.
Accepting that truth, there is another truth to
know along with it. We experience natural reality that is under the
dominion of the sitra achra, the other side, which is a nice way of
saying the yetzer hara. The Soton has dominion over the natural world
because our test is contained in our approach to the natural world.
When
we experience a negative charge, where is its power coming from? Why
does it feel so overwhelming as to drive a person to pull the covers
over their head? Or get angry? There is nothing in the room with us! A
thought has the power to level us? Is it plugged into the wall? If we
perceive that it is a thought and an emotion that we are dealing with,
then we begin to understand we are experiencing a discrepancy between
the tzelem elokim that is happy serving Hashem and the part of us that
is natural, which would like to dominate our heart.
Now
here comes a helpful tip. The energy driving the natural comes ALSO from
Hashem, only it is enclothed in the natural. And because we know that
everything Hashem sends is good, even though it is presenting in a
confusing and painful presentation, if we remember to rise to a simple
level of emunah, we can recycle the energy being delivered through the
natural and bring it through us in a way that reveals Hashem’s Glory.
“Hashem!
I am experiencing a great deal of energy that is unpleasant but I know
it contains the Shechina! I love Hashem and I have awe of Hashem that He
creates a world where He gives Nishmas Am Yisrael happiness for serving
Him by connecting! Please I ask that You move that energy from this
upsetting place and instead give that energy into my free will to
instead emulate You. Please lead me in the path that I wish to go and
flow naturally through my heart Your attributes to tolerate insult,
overlook faults, bear confusion of mind, forgive, and cast sins into the
sea”
Try it. The initial feeling of calmness is an
indication that there has been a shift. What may happen is that there
will be opportunities where it will feel that we have more choice,
instead of being reactive, that opportunity to put our newly acquired
awareness will lead to a new pattern of behavior and reacting.
We
cannot do anything without Hashem ever, least of all take on the
natural world. But Hashem is the Source for everything and with that
emunah, and with free will, and with understanding that we are here to
recycle the animating force from nature to reveal His Glory, we have a
starting place to talk to Hashem.
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