The frame of reference that the three steps submission separation and sweetening that we are using during our teshuva (www.brachagemach.com
- if interested send email to shulikleinman@beyondanydoubts.com) to
benefit the teshuva we do is important to understand more deeply.
In
order to receive the true happiness and pleasure that Hashem wishes to
bestow upon Nishmas Am Yisrael, we have to be a vessel that can contain
it, meaning that it will feel like a pleasure to us.
For
our mind to expand from the happiness and pleasures we associate with
worldly matters, physical and emotional satisfactions, a sense of value
based on the appearance of being capable independently existing beings,
we need to grow in yiras shemayim.
We have an inner
strength to ask Hashem to help us bend our firey responses when
experiencing a lack of love and value from other people. We beseech
Hashem to help us release happiness and pleasure from being trapped in
the thought that we must "do something" to secure our perceived need for
love and value from people or events. The way we beseech Hashem is by
effacing with yiras Shemayim anything that blocks us from the reality
that He Alone is creating every detail of our circumstance in order to
give us the opportunity to realize Hashem is One, to internalize what it
means to say Know there is Hashem. KNOW IT, even in that moment.
Knowing
it in that moment effaces the grip that our natural being, our
ego-development even when healthy, trusts as the source for happiness
and pleasure. Knowing there is Hashem in that moment, releases the
soul's source of happiness and pleasure to its true root, its
inseparable connection to Hashem.
Happiness and
pleasure come from learning Torah, emulating Hashem (toleratiing insult,
overlooking faults, bearing the burden of confusion of mind, forgiving,
and casting sins into the sea) and living with emunah, faith that the
Source of all Vitality is Hashem and bitachon, trust, that our our firey
reactions can burn out lower levels of existence in order to instead
flow passion for Torah to create warmth and light. Our effort to do so
is the basis of real esteem and the consequence of doing so is the
experience of real pleasure as we build our mind's capacity to receive
it and prefer it over the natural we just effaced.
This
effacing of worldly matters during the three weeks is a teshuva that
comes at a time that has the potential to be a time of holliness but got
covered over because of the sin of the Golden Calf. All progress we
make in returning happiness and pleasure to serving Hashem helps us to
repair the false belief that there is any glory other than Hashem's
Glory.
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