Submission: Hashem, I am experiencing a bitterness
Kavana: Within my subconscious or unconscious or basic human nature is keeping happiness and pleasure busy with radioactive/firey defensive or aggressive self-referencing thoughts and it is bitter, resentful, anger producing, terrifying, upsetting [say out loud the emotion and what triggered it and it is bitter]
I do not wish to follow so reactively whatever naturally comes to mind! Please I turn to You with love in my heart
Kavana:[tell Hashem that I wish to be seen by Him as this effort to make a repair, not with the matter being confessed, as the basis for esteem]!!
Separation:. Blessed is the Name of Your Glorious Kingdom Forever and Ever – You are One.
Kavana: There is amazing light trapped there by the awesome design that You Create the world and I wish to use that light from nature uttered by You and concealing You to instead reveal Your Glory
Whatever nature or human nature is covering over the experience of revealing Your Glory, please dissolve it and wipe it off so that revealing Your Glory flows without impurities through my heart. I only want to be who You want me to be!
Kavana: I realize that built into subconscious and unconscious reactions is human nature, and all nature is under the domain of the Soton! Please Hashem, give me free will over this area of human nature being expressed within these emotions because whatever is being triggered is like a magnet automatically operating within the mind with suggestions and reactions and impulses and desires toward aveiras, hating others, bearing a grudge, feeling resentful, judging, taking revenge and more
[Describe the dissonance in the experience and what the challenges are]. Please help me wipe off the impurities and use the entire light to reveal Your Glory That is my free willed choice, please help!
Kavana :Hashem is One and by virtue of stating that, please dissolve the magnetic draw pulling downward into magnetic draw to strengthen resolve to learn Torah, emulate Your Attributes of Mercy, and live with emunah and bitachon.
Please Hashem help with bending whatever the unbounded desires are [state them] to the truth that the Source of all Vitality is You, and may the desire only for what is good in Your eyes draw me so that happiness and pleasure are derived from divine dignity, Torah, emulating Hashem and living with faith and trust. Help me let go of impurities blocking the pleasure that Hashem designs for our essence so that I become a vessel capable of receiving the pleasure of devekus Hashem desires to give us. Please Hashem help with burning out lower levels of expression of volatile radioactive urges including anger, anxiety, arrogance and more in order that passion be directed for Torah. Please Hashem through the words Hashem Echad, may the desire bound by knowing that You are the Source of all vitality Who Gives what is Good and only Good subdue radioactive arrogant responses so that together forms warmth and light that is beneficial and that reveals Your Glory.
Hashem I direct that the lights of happiness and pleasure trapped in human nature and subconscious be released [name them and identify them in as much detail as possible out loud]. Please wipe off the impurities trapping them, and please move the strength to cling to revealing Your Glory, for there is no glory other than Hashem. Hashem Is One.
Kavana: With love my heart please forgive us for ever thinking there is any Glory other than Hashem and help me draw deeply into the desert of the subconscious place a healing so that revealing Hashem’s Glory flows naturally through mind and heart. Please help straighten out whatever is in the deepest recesses of thought and emotion with Your Will so that thought and speech reveal divine dignity, as the moon reflects the sun.
Sweetening: Please help me reveal Your Glory through speech and deed, and may Your Glory fill the elements water, fire, wind and earth without impurities of human nature so that Your Glory may be seen in the world.
Hashem may will, thought, emotion, speech and deed reveal Your Glory, tolerating insults, overlooking faults, bearing the burden of the discomfort of mind that happened when we ingested from the tree of good and evil causing experientially internalized externalities to appear in our mind as “me”, please forgive us for ever thinking there is any glory other than You, and please cast all our sins into the sea. Please may this teshuva that adds light that through free willed choice has been brought from human nature and dissolved into revealing Hashem's Glory through the statement Hashem is One be a merit for Klal Yisrael.
May this be a merit for Klal Yisrael that our generation should be meritorious for redemption b’ahava.
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